so the holidays are almost at an end... school is beckoning haha... then again... it muct have been calling real hard cause i pretty much spent this week in school anyway... *sigh* thats life...

Sunday: did a pedicure with jawei haha so cute... other than that we (may cheryl jawei and i) went from place to place within marina square to eat and discuss year book stuff...

monday: went to school to do the proposal presentation thingy for ken kwan... that took really long...

tuesday: met cheryl and may to chaat abt the year book thingy... and do the design stuff... FOR YEAR BOOK in town...

wednesday: met in sch again... this time with hte marketing girls... finished up the creative proposal then ajourned to town to meet kn kwan to yet ANOTHER presentation... that took quite long too...

thursday: went to dms to pring the proposal... talked to ms kwa a while... the first thing she said was "so any updates" as opposed to hello... yes *hi ms kwa* anyway printed the creative proposal took it home to cut and paste and what not have you... discovered that mounting board is actually very hard to cut... but anyway finished at around 2 sth AM... looked pretty nice... tried not to freak at all the tpos i suddenly realised existed in the thingy... but ok...

friday: pulled myself out of bed to go to sch and present the proposal to mr ma... realised that the creative proposal needed to be creatively bound... so ended up in clementi with may to attempt to do that... welll the "only binding shop" there couldnt do what we wanted so had to settel for conventional plastic binding... the thingy turned out like a calander... on whatever... presented it anyway... went to town after that with sonia and may... got a new book yay... then went to look for stuff to wear to jawei's party tomorrow *if its happening haha* but didnt find anything... oh well...

just now: haha may gave me this funny site to see how much your blog is worth haha... my blog's actully worth something haha... (quite shocked)

when you're bored and online....
blog crap haha...*like this*

yeah so i'm bored and online haha... finally managed to connect to my generous neighbour's wireless... waiting for my mother to get that router will probably take a few lifetimes so yeah.. make do...

hummm... came back form kl yesterday... ok customs was total bull... *talk about super inefficiency whatever...* anyway... was just happy to be back... i missed... my bed actually haha... yesss my grandmother's bed was like super lumpy... and she sleeps so early... hummm.... that's not all i missed but ok...

so... what was on the itenerary for today... went to meet daniel before service today... yes... moral support hhaha... went to cold storage to buy apple chips... yes...*one of the best things ever made* suddenly thought of sherm haha.... *my apple chip fren hahaha* figured i hadnt seen him in ages haha... since july or sth... used to be 3 of us against the wirld... 4 actually before jessie left... haha anywyas yeah... went for service... ... ... perfection.... ... ... yes... thats what i'm talking about... anyways... after service... attempted another *i'll try stay behind stunt* ok... wast as successful this week... decided to catch my free ride home about after half an hr of "hanging"... that's not good... i said i'll try... i did... but well maybe i fell short... that sux... i'm wondering if i really want this bad enough... i guess i do... just not sure where to start... or how...

o well... we'll just see... at least oct has been prooving a better month then sept... i'm not much less muddled... but as long as it doesnt get worst its ok i guess...

stilll stuck in kl... bought up almost the whole of bandar utama... omg everything's soo darn cheap... it's been raining the past 2 days... sux... hate rain... but then again i'm indoors most of the time so... who's complaining... will be going shopping again soon haha...

results were out yesterday haha... as expected... it didnt break much form the usual pattern... the one C+... *you guess for what...* haha veather... but omg the sas thingy was soooo slow...

spec dip results are out today... yay thanx ms kwa for nice grades... haha... i got a B for CC... haha... ok la better then the C i was thinking i'd get... what a contrast... hummm.....

anyway quite happy... haha.... SHOPPING TIME.... CIAO

*yay sonia no more sad post... haha*

Ok so I'm right in the middle of the holiday... well sorta I guess... but then again... I wouldn't exactly call this a holiday... have been pretty stuck on this whole CH U, SPlace thingy... wont go into details...

Anyways went for dinner *Marriott buffet mind you haha* on Tuesday with jawei Andrew and pedro... haha... perdro and I were seriously wondering what the hell we were doing there with them but ok we'll just say that we were chaperones or something... *jawei was looking lovingly at him haha... and vice versa...* went to indochine after that cause there was live music whatever... saw Grace and Terrance there lmao...

Hung out with dix and tien lang on Wednesday... was pretty interesting... never really talked to tien lang that much before... I guess you could say it was a fun night... real ego trip for everyone lol... but I guess I'm convinced *they’ve convinced me* to try again and give church another chance... dare say that I’m frigging scared to do so... I guess the past is the past but that doesn't mean that history never repeats itself... if it does... I don't know how much more I can put up with...

Here's another story... there was a girl. she had a pretty good life. but she was also a pretty ignorant girl. some say she trusted too easily. others just say she was young. Well this ignorant life worked well for her. at least she felt somewhat included. wasn't that was what matted most.

Then one day all that disappeared. she lost him. she lost her. she lost herself. this is what she said.

I'm tired of running... I’m done with running for the past 3 years... but now I'm afraid I've run too far that turning back will be to hard... I kept away so that I won't get hurt... but this thing is that I know I shouldn't... can I go back and face the past that I tried so hard to leave behind... the thing is that I didn't want to run... but each time I came it just brought pain... eventually I gave up... but now... I give in...

She'll survive she knows she will. but will she cry I know she will. she wont break she knows she wont. but can she stay. I know she'll try...

She sat alone by the counter. Watching the people laugh with their friends. They were once her friends too. Suddenly a voice beside her asks if she’s all right. She nods and forces a smile. But the voice is not convinced. Maybe there is hope she thinks. But again she’s mistaken.

He enters and sits down at the table in front of her. His friends congregate at the other table. But for some reason he does not join them. Maybe she should talk to him. But that would be awkward. She watches him from where she is. Loving everything about him. Suddenly they call him to start and he motions for her to follow.

She sauntered into the room. Finally there was something for her to do. The sullenness and loneliness for that hour was over.

She looked around the room, the cold and unfamiliar room. He was there to. Complete perfection. But he was not alone. Surrounded by all his friends. They were once her friends too. But alas things change. She is nobody there. Longing to go back to yesterday when she had been with the people who somewhat cared about her, or so she thinks. But that wont happen. Not for this hour. All she can do is to put on a good front and convince herself that it’s ok to be alone in a crowd.

She has been watching him the whole time. But nobody notices that. They’re all to interested in their friends. They were once her friends too. Suddenly he turns to look at her. Her eyes are emotionless and to some maybe cold. But maybe he sees the subtle hints of softness and the pain in her eyes. He smiles and she smiles.

She has not known him long. But she knows enough to see how perfect he is. And she knows that if he could see the person she was inside, he’d love her for who she is. But is it too late for that now. Has his mind been poisoned with the stories of her past.

ok... i'll state for the record that september is over haha... yay... the chicken is now off the hook... haha

went yesterday to the year book challet...
was actually really funny... for starters... ryan broke the pool cue haha....






yeah... cheryl and i just couldnt stop laughing when he went to return the cue... and the guy at the counter was mutterign something about this being the first time in history... LOL...

anyway... drank barcadi with green tea or orange juice haha...
sat around and attempeted to brainstorm a format haha...came out pretty ok i guess... but got diestracted watching love actually.... *so sweet!!!* and there after wimboldon haha... not bad too i guess... but came to the conclusion that they ised body doubles during the matches haha...

ah well.. went up to the bedroom to talk and stuff... all 6 of us actually managed to squeese into one room haha... so yeah was talking abt a whole lot of crap.. from blogging in wingdings to menstruation to aeroplanes to breast feeding haha... and goodness knows what else...

ended up sleeping at 5 sth 6... haha and was supposed to watchyou've got served at 8 10... but i think everyone kinda missed it so ya.. haha....

full day ahead tomorrow... bah.. gotta shoot the ch u splace thingy... as well as do a feature on it haha... lmao... at this rate you's think sp was under staffed and stuff haha... watever...

anyway i know shar alreasy put this up haha... but yes couldnt resist... there is some resemblance you've gotta agree... *xcept that this pic gives way too much creadit but whatever la...*