masquerade ~ paper faces on parade

Saturday, January 21

so this started like ages ago when sonia and i cant remember who else showed us the book of answers... oh well was in Times bookshop earlier on and sherm and i so happen to stumble across the book of answers... and naturally we picked it up for a few laughs... yes we and the others with us started asking lame ass questions and getting lame ass answers... then sherm found PART 2 haha the book of love answers *wahaha* anyways at that time was also messaging grace and she said go call him... *ie: make the first move* anyway sherm and i decided to be asses and ask the book "should i" and the answer was "its not your style" wahahahha... yess the pure coincidence of it all... casue that was almost the exact same thing i told grace... *how weird is that man* anyways the only result was the 2 of us laughing so hard at the back of times...

anyways aside from the fun... the other day was at the bus stop on my way back... saw this bunch of guys smoking... ok la thats actualy quite normal... i mean why should i be surprised... but maybe it was the stressfull weeks or just the lack of sleep... i started thinking...

here's the thing... there was this one guy i the group of nicotine and tar supporters who kinda stood out... simply cuase it kinda struck me that this person could actually be made to be quite good looking.... except that he just ruined his image and everything with his kinda lifestyle... *and dress sense actually* and the thing is that guy wasnt the only such case...

so anyway i was wondering... y is it that people ruin their looks and life just so they can have that image that's so called "cool" to them... i mean isnt there more to life than all this frivilous intangible activities and such that wont even benifit you in the near future... its really a pitty cuase there's so much one can do with their life... so was wondering what motivates them in the first place...

oh well i've had my say lol... just felt like blogging so had to come up with something "intelectual" to talk abt... maybe its the effect of the book of answers...

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Wednesday, January 11

rain rain rain... thats all thats been happening today... sux... i dunno what to say...
watched proof today... was quite nice... the guy is dam hot LOL...
ok i really have nothing to say...
prmp sux
i'm tired
good night

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Sunday, January 8

was talking about the past just now online... ok wouldnt go as far as to say it was self disclosing... just more like a been there done that sorta thing...

anyway the thing i realsied is that after all the screw ups i'm still the same me and i'll always be me... whether i like it or not... perhaps the only difference is that after each screw up i'll just come out older and wiser...

I'm not a bit changed--not really. I'm only just pruned down and branched out. The real ME - back here - is just the same.

but why is it that everyone remembers only the mistakes and crap you pull... getting to know the person you're trying to be rather than the person you were... shouldn't it be more important...

i suppose shakespear was right all along...
"Men's evil manners live in brass: their virtues We write in water."

so now the question lies in weather i dare to take a chance for the future and risk having a reply of the past... cause God help me if i have the past part 2 come again... emotional and mental turmoil... i dont think i'd be able to take it again... but then again what am i thinkin... what are the possibilities of that happening in the first place...

ok so the past dont exactly shape the future... it just shapes the choices we make in the future...

yeah ok so thats just what i was thinking about... no i'm not down or anything... au contraire actually... i dare say i've been feeling pretty content these past few days... stressed included though but yeah... its the 2006 aura... its good... lets hope it stays that way...

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Wednesday, January 4

so this song was kinda stuck in my head... well i suppose its nice in a good way at least...

rent - seasons of love

Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
Five hundrend twenty five thousand
moments so dear
Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year

In daylight, sunsets, in midnights,
in cups of coffee, In inches, in miles
in laughter in strive,

In Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in the life

(chorus)
How about Love
how about love
how about love
measure in love
seasons of love
seasons of love

Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
Five hundrend twenty five thousand
journeys to plan
Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
how do you measure the life of a woman
or a man

In truth that she learned
or in times that he cried
In the bridges she curned
or the way that he died

Its time now to sing out
though the story never ends
lets celebrate remember a year
in the life of friends

(chorus)

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Sunday, January 1

its past mn already... good bye 2005 and hello 2006... yes finally the new year has come... am i excited... yeah of course... 2006 is gonna be great... i just know it...

looking back...

2005 was a challenging year... challenging cause of the many weird things that have happened especially in the past few months... there were many ups and many downs... but with the downs last year also came the strengh and determination to set it right... i think i can safely say that 2005 was the year that i've finally decided to stop running... its not been easy... facing the past... but i've tried... and i know God has definately given me the strength to do that... and this year i'll keep trying cause i know that something great is happening...

2005 was also a year of success... i dare say... i got almost everything i set out to achieve at the begining... academic success... i liked my grades.. they werent bad... the crush scholarship... buit up my portfolio... gained recognition for good works done... accepted responsibilities etc... socially... i suppose you could say i've found acceptance... one big thanks to 02... its been great working with you guys over the past year... also to the other sp ppl i've had the chance to work with this year... and perhaps i'd found something more than i anticipated... i found myself...

finally 2005 was really the year of "first times"... even from the start of the year.. when we moved from mt sophia to princept... the past has been abolished... *literally actually*... then there was all those new roles that were presented to me in sch... and the musical... that was first too... the first time i've ever spent so much time in church in 3 years... yes its been 3 years... and the thing is that this was a first time i actually talked to alot of ppl i knew existed but never knew them personally...

today i look back... i see the big picture for what has been going on... not the full picture but a broder picture... things have changed... and in a good way it didnt seem so at first but now i think it was all for good...

2006... heres to a great year ahead... ok i mean its not like some fairy tale cause there are gonna be ups and downs... the road ahead is not smooth... it never was and it never will be... by the pahway of duty flows the rivers of God's grace...what His plan is i do not know but what i'm called to do that i know... and i will see it through... i guess right now... looking at whats ahead...

like Rhordans songs... its gonna be a brand new day... hold on to hope... JOIR DI VE...

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