Ok so I'm right in the middle of the holiday... well sorta I guess... but then again... I wouldn't exactly call this a holiday... have been pretty stuck on this whole CH U, SPlace thingy... wont go into details...

Anyways went for dinner *Marriott buffet mind you haha* on Tuesday with jawei Andrew and pedro... haha... perdro and I were seriously wondering what the hell we were doing there with them but ok we'll just say that we were chaperones or something... *jawei was looking lovingly at him haha... and vice versa...* went to indochine after that cause there was live music whatever... saw Grace and Terrance there lmao...

Hung out with dix and tien lang on Wednesday... was pretty interesting... never really talked to tien lang that much before... I guess you could say it was a fun night... real ego trip for everyone lol... but I guess I'm convinced *they’ve convinced me* to try again and give church another chance... dare say that I’m frigging scared to do so... I guess the past is the past but that doesn't mean that history never repeats itself... if it does... I don't know how much more I can put up with...

Here's another story... there was a girl. she had a pretty good life. but she was also a pretty ignorant girl. some say she trusted too easily. others just say she was young. Well this ignorant life worked well for her. at least she felt somewhat included. wasn't that was what matted most.

Then one day all that disappeared. she lost him. she lost her. she lost herself. this is what she said.

I'm tired of running... I’m done with running for the past 3 years... but now I'm afraid I've run too far that turning back will be to hard... I kept away so that I won't get hurt... but this thing is that I know I shouldn't... can I go back and face the past that I tried so hard to leave behind... the thing is that I didn't want to run... but each time I came it just brought pain... eventually I gave up... but now... I give in...

She'll survive she knows she will. but will she cry I know she will. she wont break she knows she wont. but can she stay. I know she'll try...