yes... the elements of christmas is finally over... maybe my life can get back to normal routine again... but then again... those 2 weeks of sch-church thingy... not too sure whats the routine anymore...

well good stuff first... the 3 day musical was really great... i think everyone was kinda impressed with it... Rhordan's totally the best... day 1 was amusing... quite forgot that my mic was on... and was talking to wynne abt stuff which was apparently being channeled through to the mucisians room... wtf... other than that... ok...

but now the rush of events are over... term has unofficially broken... its e-learning week... next week term break... christmas... am i looking forward to christmas... should i be looking forward to all the festivities that i used to enjoy so much...

been wondering if its humanly possible to be in a place and feel so happy and so miserable at the same time... to wanna be at this place but always feel like trash when you leave it... then wonder time and time again why you subject yourself to such torture... and the simple answer is becasue thats the place that makes you feel so happy and miserable at the same time... and just for that odd moment of real happiness you'd risk the probability of being hurt over and over again...

next year will be better... i know it will be... i hope it will be... it has to be better...