was talking about the past just now online... ok wouldnt go as far as to say it was self disclosing... just more like a been there done that sorta thing...

anyway the thing i realsied is that after all the screw ups i'm still the same me and i'll always be me... whether i like it or not... perhaps the only difference is that after each screw up i'll just come out older and wiser...

I'm not a bit changed--not really. I'm only just pruned down and branched out. The real ME - back here - is just the same.

but why is it that everyone remembers only the mistakes and crap you pull... getting to know the person you're trying to be rather than the person you were... shouldn't it be more important...

i suppose shakespear was right all along...
"Men's evil manners live in brass: their virtues We write in water."

so now the question lies in weather i dare to take a chance for the future and risk having a reply of the past... cause God help me if i have the past part 2 come again... emotional and mental turmoil... i dont think i'd be able to take it again... but then again what am i thinkin... what are the possibilities of that happening in the first place...

ok so the past dont exactly shape the future... it just shapes the choices we make in the future...

yeah ok so thats just what i was thinking about... no i'm not down or anything... au contraire actually... i dare say i've been feeling pretty content these past few days... stressed included though but yeah... its the 2006 aura... its good... lets hope it stays that way...